If you think you've seen the ocean because you stand at the water's edge, think again. Perhaps you've sailed across the open sea communing with whales and sea birds, do you think to yourself, 'now, I have seen the ocean, now, I have seen the sea'? What if you've only flown over the oceans, from land to land, would that perspective be the one? One glorious sunny day, you swim with dolphins and snorkel with sea turtles and sting rays, does your mind satisfy the heart and say, 'I've seen this before'? And, sitting at a fancy restaurant, the waiter brings you a fresh sea bass dinner, do you think you know fish now?
The mind is quick to relay a complete compilation of perspective in unfathomable time. It is so convincing. The mind can take any story, any image, any thought, any thing and create an epic masterpiece of illusion.
Even the best of us can become hypnotized by the confusion with which the mind presents its stories. The best actors and actresses are portrayed on the stage in the mind way before a toe has ever graced a stage. What of all this drama? What of all this chaos? We channel it outward to space, to thin air, to each other, to our children, to everything with very little concern of the result. We are so sure of what we see. We are so sure of what we feel. We are so sure.
Clarity would disagree.
In my own personal journey, in my own personal mind, I have been disillusioned. I have been hoodwinked. Scammed. I have believed the epic story teller's tale of woe, fear and defeat. I have reaped the minds suffering of repeated dwellings, deep caverns of discontent and discord. I have believed others' stories too. I have believed the media. I have believed merchandise. I have believed that which has no soul. The mind is soulless. The mind is conflicted, quick to reverse its ego serving hard drive. The mind is a tool that can malfunction. The mind can be manipulated. It is one of the human souls' routing systems of all we have the potential to become, but the mind has to be controlled, corralled, soothed and calmed. The only thing that soothes the mind is the human taking control of it. And, might I add, if you don't control your mind, someone else will. Perhaps just an archetype run a muck, or perhaps it's someone else like government, or pharma. It is much harder to control that which you do not understand. Knowledge is truly power here.
It's been a long 40 years for me in the desert of my mind. Unlike the seas and oceans depth, my mind just stretched across for miles in the dust of scorpions. I am referring to the process that I allowed my mind to take when navigating my world. Sure, we all have issues, or past experiences, or things that have happened to us that we carry. We all do. And sure, some of us are more aware than others even convincing themselves that they're doing something different, finding a better solution, a more profitable outcome, but the results speak volumes. You are what you think you are, and I am what I think I am.
And, all of that is subject to change in a flash, like a comet streaming across the sky illuminating the shadows and dust that transcends. Give in to it. Allow. Stop resisting. Only silence and meditation can lead the way through the noisy hallways and persistent sign posts showing choices always, but definitives never. Courage. It takes courage to look within and to cultivate truth and integrity in a society that is dead set against your freedom. My freedom. I choose to carry my dust pan around on the inside and tidy up. I'm clearing out, with love, that which no longer serves me. With respect and gratitude, I silence fear and reach for trust. You are welcome to sift my ashes to find your own peace. The grains of sand have much to say and I gladly share, only asking you to use your own discernment, your own souls' affinity for truth, when seeking answers. Seek your own sands of truth. Truth wins, hands down.
"What is truth?" retorted Pilate. With this he went out again to the Jews gathered there and said, "I find no basis for a charge against him.'
Isn't it interesting that the bible depicts Pilate questioning what truth is? He is asking from his mind what truth is and then, from his heart he testifies to the truth of that hour, of that Great Man and Teacher Jesus, "I find no basis for a charge against him.", and they crucified him, first with their minds, and afterward their hearts bled.
Oh, that discernment could have formed itself out of dust and ashes and testified to all of us.... Oh, wait. it did. Jesus certainly came in truth, died in truth and testified from his heart, truths that will serve mankind until man is kind, kind to ourselves and then, kind to each other.
I am cultivating a kinder mind now. I am serving a Higher Master now. No longer will I serve the will of the mind, but the mind will serve my will. I am the Master. For this purpose we have come. We have come into existence to experience the fullness of life and that is love, not drama, not struggle, not a lot of things. You decide. I am and I have. ~*~
It's been a great, little while since I've written, but I've been really well. I hope this finds you well also and I hope you enjoy the video I posted. I just stumbled upon it (HA - as if), and it just so eloquently delivers a mirror into my soul. I need to move to Hawaii. Don't be surprised if I do. I've been to Kauai and I'm just yearning to go back, more than ever. This just kind of clinched it for me. Reiki is pretty popular there (everywhere) and if I could find a job there - poof. Watch me.
Well, why not? I've got nothing to lose and I really have the limitless sky holding me back. And, if you're going to start over, why not in paradise? Oh no, it really is. Turtles, whales, beaches, rain forests, hawaiian culture and love. It's America, only paradise. It's on my list - and as they say, be careful because your worst nightmare comes true in the end...that's why, my worst nightmare is retiring somewhere on one of the islands of Hawaii. Why not? After this past Winter...
Some seasons are colder than others and spiritually speaking, the Winter of my soul is over. This I know. I am heading for warmer seasons. I feel it. Either way, I'm finding grace to be the order of the day and complete trust. Well, the other way around really. First, I completely trust and then the grace of God meets me and lifts up my heavy chin toward bluer skies. Truer skies. I'm liberated. I don't have to work at it. Effortless and easy becomes the awakening. And, what a great peace and deep knowing in "all is well", and "all is as it should be". I just keep showing up, meditating, praying, and setting healing intentions and know I am venturing into the manifestation territory of my future and dreams. I know I am stepping into that which God has carved out for me. I've heard that in my spirit many times. I know that the more I listen and the more I yield, the more God will lead. That really becomes the effortless and easy part.
I gave a Reiki lecture recently to some beautiful students of Bergen Community College, and I've been practicing Reiki regularly. I also aquired my Akashic Record Certification at a long weekend workshop. I've come a long way - or should I say, Spirit has led me a long way. Yes. Yes, that's what I will say.
Glory to the Most High God, who lives and reigns and has Her being in me. I'm so looking forward again. It's been a while since I've really felt the lightness and hope of that sentiment. I deserve it. Just me, just the way I am. I AM.
When you wake up in the morning, I hope you realize that your life is starting all over again. With every awakening you are that much closer but you are also getting a mulligan. You are getting a chance to do it all over again, better, wiser, stronger and more confidently than the day before. Hopefully you are keeping notes and remembering and forgetting all at the same time. Hopefully you are not judging tomorrow because of yesterday. Hopefully you are living in today and not tomorrow. Hopefully you are present breathing in the here and now of it all, and when you close your eyes to sleep and rest, you do just that. You rest and renew and restore so that in the brand new shinyness of the morning you too can shine. That's what mornings are for. That's who mornings are for.
Have you ever noticed that most mornings start off with a huge bang? Sure they're mostly quiet and serene except for that explosive ball of firey, eye-blinding light in the sky. It is far from quiet and serene yet we gain a sense of calm from it. On the contrary, our sun is pure fire burning, endlessly flaring and exploding, forever cascading heat and warmth, growth, light, and yet a constant miraculous, mysterious comfort. What should we make of this? Well, we should probably at the least be 'all in' when we wake up in the morning. Pay attention tomorrow when you wake up. Are you replaying what happened last night, yesterday, last week, or heaven forbid, last year? Are you waking up replaying all your failures and failed efforts only to feel defeated before your feet even touch the floor? Is your all consuming fire full of the desire to warm, grow, light and comfort the world or is your all consuming fire just about out and smoldering in ashes? Perhaps it's time for some self evaluation. Perhaps you need to go outside and sit in the sunshine and ponder it's existence, let it warm you and coax you into a growth spurt. Perhaps a little poderance of life's mysteries is called for.
With every day that passes and with every morning my eyes open, I am amazed at the reality that I am exactly where I am supposed to be. I am definetly not where I was yesterday and I have no idea where I will be tomorrow. I do not have my life figured out so definitively as of yet. I used to. I used to have big plans steeped in my desires but plans change just like the weather especially when your plans include other people. Sometimes people change their minds. The constant though, is the creator. I am the constant creator in my life and I can destroy and create my reality at will.
That's my current realization.
It took a nudge from my Qi-gong healer to get my psyche to let go of the dread conditioning that unfortunately permeates everything and most everyone lately. I had my feet planted firmly in defeat and didn't even realize it. In my most recent session, I acted like a spoiled child who couldn't see that the cookies were right there in front of me. I couldn't see the cookies were right there in front of me because my eyes were closed shut. I was unable to grasp the notion that the cookies were RIGHT THERE. Why? Because I had allowed myself to believe that 'this was as good as it gets'. What a bunch of rubbish.
It wasn't until the appointed time when my healer worked his 'magic' that I could see clearly again. The reset button didn't exist prior to that session in my mind. It absolutely existed though, I mean, we live in a Universe of abundance and infinite possibilities but I couldn't or wouldn't be open to it...yet.
However, once the illumination began, the scales fell from my eyes, the weight lifted, I had a renewed sense of life and possibilities. Right before that though - all's I could say was 'No!, No!, No!' Silly little girl.
How is it that someone like me who is on a quest for light and Spirit and all things God, be sound asleep?
Well, I'm not really. The truth is I am on a quest.
God knows what I seek and He also knows what I need to know. As I wake up every morning I have a sincere desire to be better than I was yesterday, to honor the light and love and God inside of me, to honor all of that in all of you, and to be the best I can be. God knows that. The Angels know that. The Universe knows that. All of us are conspiring to make all of this happen. What I desire I am a magnet to. All that I concentrate on becomes larger. Therefore, all that I seek I will find. It's the most basic of effective equations but you have to be open to the answers. Please don't assume you have anything figured out. Once you do that you are putting sleeping pills in your mouth and then you're sleepwalking, talking and making sense to only everyone else who is asleep, but the truly present know better. They recognize a sleeping human. If invited, they gently nudge them awake, give them a shot of sunshine and promise them that the blue skies are real and so are the butterflies.
Life is magical.
Don't fall back to sleep and believe that it's all doom and gloom. Would a butterfly ever come out of its cocoon if anyone ever told it that?
I am in awe of this life, this hollogram, this human experience as Spirit. I am thrilled that God has graced this Spirit with a body to navigate this dimension. (There are many dimensions my friends.) I am a very curious being and I have learned to unlearn everything I've ever known about this life and I have been reset back to core which is child-like bliss, curiosity, creation, love, kindness, playfullness, and mysteriousness. You wanna play?
Today, my beautiful niece Tori graduates High School and I'm missing it. I have shed a few tears but there is really nothing I can do about it, so I accept. I couldn't fly now physically so I can only go by remote viewing. If you don't know what that is, it's kind of like prayer but way more in depth. Our military uses it. It can be quite useful at times like these, but nothing beats the real deal of hugging and kissing your loved ones. Tori is my God daughter and I was there for every major event in her life and this one is just too far out of reach for me. I will not soon forget that the path I am on has prevented my participation, not my choice. Choices are very different and I stand behind every other choice I've made. I have to. I support me and my decisions, right or wrong, because I am still learning, growing, willing and alive.
I wish my niece a lifetime of successes just like the one she's going to achieve today. I will envision her College graduation, her wedding, her babies. I am truly there one way or the other.
As I've blogged about in the recent past, I have been under Doctor's care - for way too long now - but trying still to recover from the side effects of radiation treatment. Of course I'm speaking of radiation pneumonitis and a 'burned' lung. The course of treatment has been an excruciating round of Prednisone.
The old roller coaster "Jet Star" at Seaside, NJ after Superstorm Sandy. An amazing image of how life can twist and turn, in a heartbeat. It's finally been removed from the water and they're rebuilding a new one perhaps naming it 'Superstorm". Somethings need to be removed, reconstructed, recycled. It's all good.
For those of you who are not familiar with Prednisone, here are the basics: it is a very strong steroid used mostly to treat inflammation and cancer. I'm taking it to minimize the inflammation in my lungs. It has terrible side effects and you need to be monitored closely if taking it more than a week. In my case, at least a minimum of 10 weeks, but who knows? I am closely being monitored. Currently my dosage is still at 30 mgs daily, down 10 from 40 mgs. Thank God for that. At 40 mgs of predinisone I thought I would just about lose my mind. It's a very hyper active, roller coaster, one minute you're up and the next your crashing drug and for someone who is very sensitive to caffeine (coffee - never, tea - yes, coca-cola - if after 3pm, up all night) I felt as if I could just about fly around the room. All of this is a false sense of energy mind you. The down side is a crashing effect. Finally sleep arrives at the most inopportune times - like in the afternoon.
The side effects are ridiculous. Insomnia, increased appetite, water retention (or lovingly referred to as 'moon face'; not lovingly by me, I might add), anxiety, increased heart rate, shaking hands, confusion and the list continues. As the dosage diminishes, I am hopeful that I will return to a normal state of being but I am working so very hard at countering these side effects with sleep, when I can get it, rest, Xanax (up from .25 mgs to .50 mgs - supposed to take 3 x's a day - but I only take it when necessary. Yes, still taking it every day but not 3 x's and mostly to sleep at night). Regardless, sleep is elusive. I wake up around 2ish every morning if I was lucky enough to fall asleep in the first place, around 11ish. It's a tough battle especially since I seemed to get through radiation treatment with much more ease. I hadn't realized that this was even a possibility - the side effects to radiation treatment, that is.
During this time, I have however, begun to do some much needed energy work on myself. After the first two weeks of trying to recover from 'pneumonia' with antibiotics to no avail and loosing almost 15 + pounds, and then after the next two weeks of trying to recover from radiation pneumonitis with Prednisone, Ive gained all the weight back and I am now 2 more weeks further along and can finally say I think I am starting to think straight again. What a long, strange trip it's been.
If you need more information on Prednisone, please look it up. There is way too much information about it and most of it is scary. I chose the path of Western medicine for the most part to treat Stage 0 Breast Cancer knowing all I knew about energy healing, being a Reiki Master myself, and hearing all the guru's in the world I've listened to. The results are in, I am in remission and overcoming the side effects.
However.
If I had known then what I know now I may have done things differently. Let me rephrase that - I am doing things differently. While I need to stay the course and finish the prescribed treatment 'lest I wind up in a mental institution (yeah, you can't just stop taking prednisone - it's crazy dangerous and I've been on it for too long) I have to finish and ween off of it. In the meantime, I am taking a good, long hard look at my life, the way I've lived, my belief systems, my habits, my thoughts, my religion, my practices, my rituals, my spirit, my past, my present and the future I am planning. I realize that I have been playing it too small and living a life that was insecure, suppressed and foolish.
Sometimes, you need a jolt. Sometimes, you need more than a jolt, like maybe a bolt of lightning to strike you. It's not enough that it sometimes strikes your neighbor, burns their whole life to the ground if only an ash lands on your front porch. It may not be enough. For me, it was my house. It was me that was being struck by lightning and what I chose to do with my scorched everything is paramount to my existence, my healing, my future, and yours if I'm a healer, shaman, helper.
Through meditation, journaling, prayer, eating organic, just starting to try and stretch again practicing yoga, reading and doing my own healing work, I realize that the necessary changes are already happening.
I've never really enjoyed tread mills or stationary bikes. They literally take you no where. You go through the motions and while they get your heart rate up and increase your strength physically, you're still going no where. If you wake up in the morning and have the 'same old, same old', well, there it is. Can't today we do something different? Perhaps there is a new way of doing the 'same old' that will bring about an even better result than what you've convinced yourself is the tried and true method.
My whole life has been about trying to be open minded. I have failed miserably as I look back on this. I remember certain individuals trying to bring different information to me but because I was steeped in Catholicism and Christianity, and a lot of it had to do with fear, I resisted even looking at it. Fear is weird like that. What's even weirder is that we really don't even realize we're doing it, it's just what we've always done. Well, I'm blasting down the doors with dynamite today my friends. There is so much wonderful information 'out there' that we need not be afraid of. First, let go of the fear. Then pray about it. Then read everything you can get your hands on, and pray some more. Meditate. What you need will stay with you. What you don't will fall by the way side or come back even stronger and louder than even the tiniest seed that you may have thought the loving sun wouldn't find important. What seed doesn't grow in fertile dirt, water, mud and sunlight?
It's all in me, it always has been. I have the power to change my mind, change my health, not grow old, not grow weary, not give in to what I had believed was written in stone, or what others told me was. Is there anything truly written in stone?
The only thing that I believe is written in all consuming truth is the emotion of LOVE. I believe that it is the driving force of all life, nature, all humanity, all the earth, moon, stars and sky. Love makes us or breaks us. From love in the womb, to love in the decay of the grave for the precious body of a human and everything in between - it's all about love. Love of self. Love of others. You can also add service to this. If you aren't out there giving love....then what exactly are you doing with your life? What are you doing with your love?
This journey has lifted my heart, my mind, my empathy and compassion. It has brought so many wonderful people to me and I in return, with open heart and hands, strive to give everything I have to whomever is in my presence and subsequently, learn from them. I have a lot to give and I have a lot to learn. I am so not done yet. With my dying breath, I will say 'thank you' to the person that I'm with - or just to God if there is no one else around - or, I hope that I can relay some last, little message of hope like "see you later". I don't want to take one second for granted. I don't want to take one person for granted. I have learned something from every one.
By the way, my Grandmother Mary's last words to me were "I Love You" and my Grandmother Violet? Her last word to me was "beautiful". Think I'll ever forget that love? Never in a million years. I am so very grateful for their nurturing, giving hearts of love. I love you too, beautiful.
About myself, I've learned that "I'm still a good kid". I've been told that by one person or another my whole life. And recently, at 86 years young, Sidney Poitier was quoted as saying about himself and the life he's lived "I am a good person". I am hopeful that by that time, I too will still be saying the same. I'll be a lot younger by then lol.
"A consistent positive and optimistic attitude is the cheapest fountain of youth"
- author unknown
I strive for excellence in everything I do. Perhaps even trying too hard sometimes so being reminded that I am a good kid is key. I don't hold passion against myself though, God has made me with a fire unlike alot of others. I don't compare, I just know I can scorch better than anyone - unless you're a Leo - then it's on. I don't just scorch though, I warm, I help grow, I nourish, I shed light, yeah, I do all of that and whole lot more adding to my list daily.
In times of illness though, or sadness, or anger, or bitterness, life seems to take on a vortex of pain and magnetism. You attract the same kind of sadness, bitterness, etc. and the opposite of that is also true. Perhaps the people all around you are depressed for some reason or another. You really only need to ask a few questions of your besties to find out most people are struggling with one issue or another. It's their energy and how they cope that you could become more aware of and should become more aware of because it effects you and you effect them. I want to be a light shining not a flood drowning. I am choosing to use this time of illness to diminish the sadness associated with it. I am choosing to use this time to re energize my system, to recharge it, to heal it, to release all that had me in chains, all that I thought was true about myself. I can only know this moment and I'm getting ready to meditate :) I go within, not to escape, to increase my awareness, my capacity to know, my energy field so energy and information and come and go freely. I am using this time to fully engage where I may have gone wrong. No blame. No frustration. No guilt. That's not the way. Blame? Forget about it. I love me. I am going to be 50 years young in August and I couldn't be happier. Healthier? No. I couldn't even be healthier because the healthy me I am imagining I am now becoming. Getting grounded, centered and open is how you start.
The future? I see a lot of wonderful things in my future. I hold my dreams close in my heart, pray to God and the Angels about it, ask my ancestors for help with it, invoke healers and teachers, people that are much smarter than I am. As they say in gambling "I'm all in". I am not taking a single breath with me, or heart beat, or living cell. I am Spirit, ever evolving and what I am to be I am still becoming, as are you no matter how old you are. It's never to late to start. If I told you some of my dreams, you might laugh. That's probably why I will only share them with the divine and very close friends and family, that I trust. Most people will crush your dreams because of their own fears. Guard them then. I will offer bits and pieces and this blog is one of them. I know that I know there will be more teaching.
The unified field of all that is supreme will not offend your trust or crush your dreams. Go there and spend some time. You get there through silence and meditation and prayer. I'm going there now and, of course, I will say many prayers for you and I. My prayer list is every growing. Once the prayers have been prayed and sent out into the unified field, then I will dissolve.
We have access to everything; healing, wisdom, love, enlightenment, knowledge, future happenings (just remember, you're creating your future so if you have a premonition and you don't like it, make sure you create something better for yourself).
In the unified field we are all one. Winks.
We are always, only, one.
Try to stand alone. You know you can't. Better break it down.
There is an awful lot of information out there. We're connected to the world in so many ways, especially the internet. We need an expert in tutoring, we go to the internet. We need a plumber, we Google it. We need a mortgage, a new dress, a date, we Google or Bing it. We want to learn a new language, take a trip, find a new place to meditate or do yoga, we look it up. This is especially helpful if we're not familiar with what we need, or if we're just branching out of our comfort zone. The challenge, however, is deciphering through the amazing amount of responses we'd get to any one of these queries.
For instance, I just googled "where can I meditate in NJ" and I received over 1 million answers, places and teachers associated thereto. Over 1 MILLION. What's a soul searcher to do?
This kind of informational access can be quite overwhelming. With the advancement of technology, access to information has never before been this mainstream in the world, and I imagine it will only increase.
The media plays a very interesting role in providing us with worldwide information. You might expect that media is a friendly service provider helping humans to be aware, educated and knowledgeable about the world and its happenings but we all know media has an agenda. Certainly selling newspapers and magazines all the while keeping the 'masses' informed in a controlled manner before the www was definitely an agenda but now that print media has changed has media changed it's agenda? Not likely. So the information that we do get can sometimes be watered down, luke warm, corralling and offering a mass mindset more palatable to government and the powers that be. Okay, but at least we're informed right? No. Informed or hypnotised?
The media screens through what it deems important and that gets filtered through, they make the decision as to what's important, or not so much, and when you consistently watch the news you begin to see a pattern. As when you log onto MSN or Yahoo, the stories are filtered through. You read what they decide you read. Hmmmmm. We've all noticed the uplifting, feel good stories they sometimes report but for the most part it's horrific. Consistently horrific. That's peculiar isn't it? Perhaps a spirit of discernment is necessary to rise above the humans way its decided to run this planet and share information?
So there is a ton of information out there, and most of it is being filtered through to us. Some is spoon fed, some is force fed through multiple outlets simultaneously. If one is not careful, one may begin to rely on and believe all this informational data input. I mean, of course 'they' wouldn't tell us something if it weren't true, right? 'They' wouldn't repeat over and over that something is good for you if it weren't, right? Who decides?
As with any subject matter, there has to be some common sense but to a certain extent, if you really don't know any better, you'd be forced to trust or rely on an 'expert'. Typically there are individuals with reputations that precede them in certain arenas. Those situations speak for themselves and help in taking most of the guess work out of the equation. But what about spiritual matters or spiritual evolution. What about our spiritual journeys. How do we navigate the world wide web of information as it pertains to our real purpose for being here? Our soul journey?
For me personally, it begins in the heart. In prayer, I have come to know the deep peace that transcends my understanding. I have visited this place in my heart and I've learned to trust it. Through prayer and meditation I can go deep inside to where there is stillness and silence and I can play there. There is not a lot of Q and A happening, just trust, acceptance and a floating about. That being said, that's where the discerning spirit comes in.
In this world as we navigate the real Q and A of life, the answers sometimes fly into us in mass amounts. Why not try this? How about that? What if you went in this direction? I imagine if you ask anyone anything you'd get an answer. The question is 'how do you know the answer is right for you'?
You absolutely need to cultivate your discerning spirit; the ear that hears from deep within all that is light and God and righteous. This is not about emotions or feelings per se, in fact, in Christianity and Buddhism we're taught to be mistrusting of our feelings and our emotions, after all they are temporary and subject to change so this mindset makes perfect sense and fits in with spirit. It does not cause friction and it's notion is undisturbed inside of me. I am not resisting, nor is the spirit within me resisting. I, therefore, can accept it as truth. I have to say here that when I was younger I was way more consumed with my feelings and emotions which resisted a lot (emphasis on 'resisted a lot'). They were strong and powerful, so real. I was depressed and hurt and I was not allowing the spirit of discernment to operate in my life. It wasn't until I matured spiritually that I realized I was not using the tools at my fingertips. By the way, spirit will never force you to engage it. It is sweet and gentle and kind and loving. It is nothing to fear althought it is very mysterious. It is the essence of who we are at the center of our beings. It is more of who we are then our body will ever be although the body itself is a wealth of lessons and information - but that's for another blog.
The first step is to realize how you live your life and how you make decisions. When faced with a challenge, do you create lists and gather information by exhausting all outward resources until your head explodes with every possible scenario? Do you make a bunch of phone calls calling all guru's picking brains and getting advice from the experts? Do you watch Dr. Oz if it's medically related while simultaneously googling WebMD? Do you call your Mom to see how Grandma used to do it? Well, of course you do, and so does mostly everybody to some degree or another.
And then reality sets in and the big decision needs to be made. You've tossed and turned, your mind consumed with millions of letters createing many words and possible outcomes but you still don't know what to do. This is the time for spiritual discernment. I love the bumper stickers WWJD "what would Jesus do"? but it's way more than that. You can't Google Jesus, get His number and call Him to ask if you should stay or go. You can't Bing Buddha and ask if all is as it should be. No, you can't use the internet to connect to spirit. You can use your heart though.
Through meditation and prayer you can connect thoroughly to spirit to enhance your peace factor thereby affording you stability of mind (emotions/feelings) to connect with and make the best possible decisions for your life. There is most definetly a voice within and it mostly speaks in silence. Its voice is inaudible. It is a knowing deep in the core of our being. It is a vibration and a light. The light is always on and the vibration is also ready to be amped up if you are so inclined. Walk into the light and you will be illuminated. Tap into the center and silence of your heart and silence and peace will become your friends. They are the best teachers and the spirit of discernment feeds off of and becomes the source of all decisions and knowing. You never need to go outside of yourself to make critical decisions about your life. Knowing this creates a love affair steeped in trust, humility, a willingness to go within. The outter becomes easier to navigate when we realize the source of all life comes from within. The decisions, the passion, the choices, the dreams, the visions, they all come from within too. We are creating this life along with it's challenges if only to realize that waking up to spirit is the only real decision that needs to be made.
The rest is for spirit to choose, maintain, operate, advise and assist. Without the spirit of discernment we are ships without orrs. We are floating about with no direction.
Embrace the best possible scenario the first time around by engaging spirit in the next decison you have to make (spirit wants to assist you whether the decisions are big or small). Don't be surprised if you get the answer in the middle of the question. Spirit is waiting to help you, as are the Angels and all of Heavens Hosts. There is a spiritual community at your beck and call. Don't be so disillusioned by the mirage. Reality is just a mOMent away.
I know that life is really all about this moment. Recognizing, paying attention to, living in and accepting the stillness of this moment.
This moment though, is filled with physical mind vapors and sensations that can drive anyone to distraction. I can hear and feel my heart beating, my body breathing, my blood flowing. I am aware of the movement of the air in the room whether it be still or moving (which right now, it's doing both). I can hear the music playing although I've not turned on the receiver - and my constant conditioned thought patterns are saturating...what I have to do, where I have to go, what I am to be...I am drowned out by the droning.
Can I live inside the stillness of this moment despite the constant barrage of sensations. Can I find sovereignty who stands behind in silence? Can I become one with the ultimate observer?
And what of the world at large, is it too late since it is all about the antithesis. It never stops. It's taken all these years to learn what's been done. Let's hope there is still plenty of time left to undo it.
Being in the world and not of it...the first in a long line of recognition.
