I am such a sentimental, romantic, idealistic dreamer. I absolutely love unconditional love. I don't always understand the lack of it and that has shaken me to the core.
Understanding that life is a mystery brings unconditional love to a majestic place. It just stands alone and yet it touches and emanates from every soul to some extent, or another. Not everyone is comfortable with unconditional love. They think it must be conditional. They think that because deep down they do not unconditionally love themselves and it shows. It's quite evident.
If you truly understand that love exists in your darkest shadows, then you are standing in your full power especially when you soothe those shadows with more love. It's a process of evolution and the shadow is the best place to start. But, most will not go there. Most believe it will be too painful, or just believe there is no need. They believe that it's okay to feel badly, everybody is doing it. But, it's not okay. Who wants to feel badly all the time about anything?
Love is always the elixir for me. Finding beauty and being able to transmute anything that isn't serving the highest level of my existence to love becomes the game I play avidly. It really is a game and we can become quite proficient at it. But, it begins and ends with self love.
Listen to the song I posted below and look lovingly at yourself. Can you? Can you stare, or do you need to look away? Why? What is it? How do you feel when you see your reflection? How do you feel when you see your body? How do you feel when you look outside of yourself at your relationships? Are you truthful? Honest? Loving? Or, do you pretend?
Honesty lets the love light in but consciousness is the first to arrive, flipping the switch to have a look see. If you don't like what you see, do not judge. Soothe with love. Accept. Forgive. Be kind to yourself. Watch your self chatter. Watch you chatter about others. Are you bitter? Are you jealous? Are you judgmental? Are you sarcastic and cynical?
It's okay if you are and if you love the way this thinking makes you feel. It's okay if your philosophy is making others happy and kinder. But, if your thinking creates more static, more negativity, more disconnection, than perhaps a little unconditional love is what you need.
Just sit and take a deep breath. Do not judge yourself, or anyone else. Just be. Allow. Become the non-attached observer and see all that there is to see. Perspective is important here. Looking through a straw at the world will allow only the tiniest bit of light to flow but broaden your view and compassion will surely arrive in tall order.
Non-attached is the operative word here. This means no judgement. Just observe. Watch the mind and how it calculates many outcomes. These are just options. You always get to choose from the menu. The mind is a computer but the heart...the heart is a love pumping machine. Connect these two and then look at your options again.
How do you feel? The goal is to feel good, inside and out. The goal is to make others feel good in your presence.
Surely looking through the eyes of non-judgment and unconditional love for self first is key. Doing your own healing work and raising your vibration to the highest level possible will resonate out into and back out of the multiverse.
You are emitting a frequency for sure.
Make sure it's the best possible frequency you can emit.
I choose love. I always choose love. But, if you know a better way, I am open to hearing about it.
Keepers of Light and Love
written by Maria L. Gattuso
We understand love songs
and love letters
and long
drawn out goodbyes
We understand the hand
that never shakes
never touches
never feels
The tips of fingers revel in their knowing
to feel is
to live
they understand what
touching a beating heart can do
All the while
the busy mind tries to figure it all out
in a pdf file format
repeating what it has heard until we gain control
Our light and love eternally, easily and effortlessly
soothe and comfort
the soul's knowing
and it is truth unto itself
Breath is damp and purposeful
It is born in the darkness and
expels in the light of creation
It is born and born again
Like the truth on our lips,
the sound of
our alchemic magic
our resonance
But who is speaking
what is going
to and from
miraculous spirit humans
Who is willing
to understand these mysteries
Who is willing
to dive into their own depth to see
Surely this knowing is holy
to the keepers of light and love
Surely this wanting is stored
in the bliss of your own holy kiss
It is all stored holy in our void
It is all stored holy in our love for this life
It is stored holy in our light of day always
We just have to want to wake up to the perfection of it
You can walk, or you can fly. The choice has always been yours.
Me? I have been running and flying my whole life and I'm only just now getting really good at it. I finally know what it feels like to soar and feel really good for no apparent reason except that I exist in the here and now. I have learned not to attach my joy to anyone, or anything, except myself. Don't get me wrong, other people, places and things are wonderful but without the proper mindset, all of those things can fall sour. I just decided not to give my power away anymore to anything outside of myself. I am choosing me and my power first.
I have become an avid Energy Reader through the dismantling of my own energy system. We are one and while our experiences are unique, the energy system is pretty standard across the board. There is vibration and there is resonance and regardless of where you are, energetically speaking, your vibration and resonance are detectable. Surely you have felt your own energy, as well as everyone else's, but perhaps you did not make the distinction between the two.
Reiki works in the very same regard. Inflammation, illness, disease, sadness, anxiety, resentment, bitterness, depression, hopelessness, etc., all live in the body and emit a very low vibrating frequency that most times will eventually lead to even more serious illness. A Reiki Master Healer just needs to be familiar with these energies, or have had been in the vicinity of them to detect and move them out of the body. Qi is the propellant coupled with intention and a system that is clear, grounded and emitting light frequency. I have worked exceedingly hard to obtain this ability which anyone can obtain if they are willing to do the self work. It's not easy. I'd be lying if I said it were. It is some of the hardest work I have ever done. But, it is by far the most rewarding because after healing myself, I am able to use this knowledge and experience to heal others, and that makes all the woe worth while.
Learning to fly is all about navigating your life. As long as you are living a happy, peaceful, healthy, prosperous, adventurous, and love filled life, you are emitting a frequency of energy that lifts up the world, and you should absolutely share that! The world is in desperate need of really good healers (great healers Masters the Art of healing themselves first) and if you have any interest in pursuing the Healing Arts, I highly recommend it. Will you heal the world? No. There are 7 billion peeps on this planet and most of them are not even conscious, but you will heal yourself and that's the only place to start. The knowledge and healing you gain will indeed effect the world, and everyone in it, so go for it. Teach yourself how to fly.
It wasn't until I grabbed the scalding hot handle of the frying pan that my mind stopped racing. I had been cooking, ranting, crying, expressing great disappointment and sadness. I put the already hot frying pan in a 400 degree oven for a few minutes to finish, promptly took it out with an oven mitt and placed it on the stove, all the while still weeping. I turned to get some utensils and turning back to the white hot frying pan, tears streaming, heart bursting with sadness, I grabbed that handle with the grip of ten women. In the split second it took to grab that scorching hot handle, I became present enough to accept the burn as part of the lesson. After all, it was too late at that point, my skin had already been seared like my dinner, and now, I finally slowed down enough to get it. I dropped the pan and allowed myself just a little more sobbing, ranting, crying and expressing great disappointment and sadness while running my hand under cold water.
That was one bitter dinner.
Maine is one of my favorite places to visit and Jimmy and I were so looking forward to this trip. We loved to take long journeys in the RV and this was a big one for us driving from our Garden State to the furthest most point in the Eastern United States. We were both very excited, busy with preparations, plans, discussions and details. It was also my birthday week and I was very happy with the prospect of celebrating in Maine, on Cadillac Mountain! We were deep in conversation crossing things off of mental lists and the next thing I know, I am falling backward looking at Jim but he's too far away to save me. Everything slowed down and in a warped split second in time, I was on the basement floor, holding my broken wrist and I hear myself crying, "I BROKE it". Then I hear Jim saying, "NOOOooo"! I grabbed my wrist and began doing Reiki, speaking healing, but similar to the burn experience, presence of mind was somewhat lacking and then, I went into shock.
Of course, this begs the question, "What the hell were you thinking"?
Jimmy and I had a nice little bit of time at the ER that night to come up with all sorts of answers. We got to ponder it for quite the long while after that having to endure our beautiful vacation with a brick on my arm, followed by six weeks of occupational therapy once the cast came off, and healing bone glory that lasted just about a whole year, all to regain the use of what was my perfect hand just prior.
Well, I wasn't thinking, was I? Not clearly anyway.
I was thinking many exciting thoughts simultaneously, and I was planning a lot of things, but I was not present. While speaking with Jim, lost in thought, planning and talking, another part of me was reliving my teenage years remembering riding a skateboard barefoot in the street. In my defense, I am a bit of a tomboy so, naturally, I absentmindedly stepped on the back of that skateboard that had been in my garage for a few years, brand new, never used, wrapped in plastic. I had taken it from the garage earlier in the week in preparation of giving it to a friend with younger brothers. I obviously did not give it away fast enough. Stupid? Yes. Daring? Absolutely. Did I remember to step on the front of the board and not the back? Yes, as soon as I hit that terribly hard, slate floor, my right wrist bone fractured and I could no longer use my hand. Funny how the mind works like that.
I became quite proficient using my left hand that Summer. The lessons came one right after the other, I'm sure you can imagine, brushing your teeth, brushing your hair, feeding yourself, cleaning yourself, showering, all with your non dominant hand. It became so exceptionally hard to do anything and everything that I also became quite proficient in overcoming.
Presence of mind can be a tricky little bugger. Sometimes we think we are so present, and we are sound asleep dreaming, remembering, worrying, fretting, angering, waring, creating so much drama in our experience, it's a wonder we can produce anything of true value in our lives. The scale tips in both directions for me, and probably you as well. My highs were too high, and my lows, way too low.
I am still pretty proficient at this.
Last week, I once again, burned myself in almost the same manner as I had in the past. And, when I say past, it was a few years ago that I burned my hand, and even more since I broke my wrist. I am wondering, what has changed?
I have the word 'joy' tattooed on my left wrist and the burn from my stove came so close to it. It actually has two places with second degree burns, and the rest is clearly first. The symbolism is not lost on me. There is something inside of me that still needs to burn, transmute, change, no longer be and what ever it is, it is burning me on the inside and out. It has the potential to steal my joy, if I allow it, if I am not careful, present, discerning. I know I am not alone in my challenges. I know there are many broken and distracted hearts out there in our beautiful world. I am wondering when I will be truly whole enough to help them. I know it all starts with me and I am putting my thoughts and energy into myself, not outside somewhere.
Without me, there is no story. Without me, there are no victories, or losses to learn from. Without me, there is no game and while I have suffered, I have also overcome. While I have lamented, I have also rejoiced. While I have cried, I have also laughed so hard, tears of joy have streamed down my cheeks onto my chest. I have been soaked in joyful tears, as well as sorrowful ones, and I will always choose to overcome and bounce back.
I will always choose joy.
But what if others around aren't joyful? What if they do not choose joy? Well, don't worry about them. Just be the joy and they will see your radiance and be perplexed by it. They won't understand it but they'll be drawn to it. Just shine your light, no matter what happens and know that with each experience, each joy, each sorrow, we are growing in knowing who we are, what we are, what we want to experience and what we don't. Don't accept the situation. Challenge it. Challenge yourself to be more present, to go slower and to appreciate the abundance, endless choices and possibilities life affords. Life is really so very magical to me and despite a lot of hardship, I am such a happy person. Deep down in my soul, I am happy and have enough to spare. I love to make people smile, warm and happy. I love to uplift a sorrowful heart. I love to turn a frown upside down. :) Sounds trite again, but it isn't. Your smiling face is like the rays of the sun beaming out to the world. If you're sad, let it out. If you're angry, let it out, get it out, but don't cook while you're doing it. Do one thing at a time, right on time, and do it well. You will have less scars in the end and you'll be able to enjoy your dinners and vacations a whole lot more.
If nothing else, learn from my experience. It is leading me to what I am to be.
There are some hurts that go way
back.Some hurts go as far back as to
when we were first created.In the realm
of all possibilities, some of us were planned and waited upon with
sheer delight and excitement, and frankly, some of us were accidents, mistakes, unwanted,
and even burdensome.To that end, we came
in whether we were wanted or not, and we kicked and screamed settling down into our new
homes, new lives and new families.
We are all so unique while
sharing so much in this life experience.All one needs to do is ask the person sitting next to them and they will
tell you their version of this experience.There have been millions of stories, plays, books, novels and epic movies and documentaries written describing the journey from embryo to elder, all
very different one from another.With
all the commonalities, why all the differences?Why all the unique experiences?Why don’t we all just shuffle in through the conveyer belt of life,
travel on down the ramp to get shot out into space and call it a day?Why not just be enveloped by stars and comets
and nebula?Why the human interactions
if we’re star beings?
Because we are Spirit having a
human experience.
We’ve all heard that one by now,
and if you haven’t, well chew on that for a mOMent, if you will.If you cannot relate to Spirit, perhaps this
is a good time to review your life experience looking for the Divine.Perhaps you’ve not spent enough time in that
domain.Perhaps it’s just not concrete
enough for the human in you.Perhaps you
are the type of human that needs stimuli to believe.
I suppose we’re all like that to
some extent needing love and tenderness and caregiving from the moment we were
birthed, and those of us that did not get that love, well we probably need a
heck of a lot more stimuli to feel alive.Love is the only truth that gives life.All else is just a pale substitute that you’ll be seeking more of until
you take your last breath.You will
never get enough because it was never meant to fill you.That’s where the hurt comes in.
As infants, we get what our
caretakers were given and rarely does the cycle evolve.Stories, patterns, reasons, beliefs, myths,
legends, all keep the system in place.When something comes up that doesn’t fit, the caretakers do the only
thing they know how, they ask the same source they always ask and get the same
answers they have always gotten, resulting in doing the same thing they have always
done.Sometimes, when new inspirations
come, as they always do, fear grips the system and the inspiration is left
hanging in the wind until it is proven to be effective.Proof is the bottom line for everyone in
third dimensional living.Seeing is
believing so we’ll just do it the way we always have.That satiates a lot of people.When people come to expect the status quo,
the status quo will always be more than enough.
But what of rebels?What of revolutionaries?What of out of the box thinkers?What of star seed souls that shine light all
day, every day, no matter what?What of
those that got the status quo and rejected it?What of those that came in with their own ideas contrary to the status
quo?What happens to those?
Most adults are conditioned
thinkers.They have been molded by a
system that keeps them in a very tight niche.They are categorized by conditions; health, education, occupation, status,
finance, assets, etc.Most are quick to
define even themselves describing the exact path they took to get to this exact
place, and why?Have they arrived
somewhere other than where the rest of us are going?Do they see themselves as separate, divided,
in a league all their own?It’s
interesting to note that these are the same adults that bore children and
taught them the same conditioned thinking.Very few believe in magic, joy, or a Divine Omnipotent Being swirling
all of this together for the good of all.The ‘good of all’ is lost on so many because they see themselves as
separate, one in the sense that they’re all alone.They have not come to the realization that
everything is being observed and unity is the only way.Oneness
is altogether different and lost of them.Everything being connected just sounds trite and boorish.
Along with the conditioned
thinking is a disproportionate amount of fear based living.Even if you posses all the money, all the
land, all the people, animals and resources in the world, your soul could very
well be trapped in fear.There are
moments of happiness, but they don’t last.There are moments of love and tenderness, but they also do not
last.They can not last when fear based
thoughts are lurking in the psyche and sub-consciousness.On the contrary, a soul that has not embraced
the Divine relies on ego and self to navigate the cosmos, is a fear based
navigator to say the least, and definitely not a high ranking navigator.If there were ranks in Spirituality (and
there are but they’re referred to as levels), this low ranking traveler would not
be the one to follow.The low ranking
path will be one fraught with great contrast to cue up optimum travel which is
based in truth, God, love, unity and a oneness that has not taken root in this
soul yet.Contrast will surely separate the
wheat from the chaff allowing all souls to rise in levels of
consciousness.The eternal being has a
journey to evolve in this experience from the 3D human version to the 5D and
higher Spirit Being version.Where are
you in the process and what about the old hurts?How do we get from third dimensional
experience to a fifth dimensional experience?
L O V E.Love is the way, the only way and the truth
of the way of life.
We withhold so much of ourselves
for fear of being hurt, rejected, ridiculed, mocked, abused, taken advantage of…and
certainly, some of our experiences have brought us to these feelings of hurt,
but you do not have to stay there.Most
people do stay there though.They have
no earthly idea what to do with their hurts or insecurities.Thank God for Spiritual Healers!I would not still be on this planet if it
weren’t for these God seeking souls.
When your soul is hurt, where do
you take it?Where have you taken your
hurts and sorrows for healing?It’s
never enough to tell the story once or twice to yourself, or someone else.The response, while compassionate, is not
powerful enough to move the hurt to healing most times. Especially, when you are confiding in someone
whose soul is in worse shape than yours.Mirror work speaks to this most directly.You surround yourself with what you are.If you have conflict in your life, you are
conflicting.If you have moodiness and
sullenness in your life, look in the mirror.You probably do not smile regularly at the most mundane things.You may need a lot of stimuli just to feel something,
and anything is better than nothing when it comes to the human and the need to feel.
Human needs five senses to navigate
the earth realm; sight, sound, taste, smell and touch.Through these five senses we determine what
we are seeing, hearing, tasting, smelling and touching.When one of these senses dulls, one usually
becomes heighted.If two or more senses
fail, the human struggles, ultimately failing in accuracy especially if they
solely rely on these senses.Add trauma,
hurt, grief, depression, or sadness to the human and the senses become
extremely sensitive (and simultaneously dull) avoiding at all costs those
situations that cause more harm by numbing, choosing not to see, not to hear,
not to smell and not to taste that which causes discomfort even if it was meant
to deliver.The human does not fully
grasp the evolution process like the soul does.The soul knows the body was never meant to last and that its' decay began
day one.The soul knows the senses are
tools and uses them proficiently to find the Divine and that which will live
eternally, without suffering, confusion, disease, and dysfunction.The soul knows this human journey is a fortuitous
journey gathering alchemic experiences, hurts and all, and uses every single
thing as it was meant to be used.Nothing is cast aside.Nothing.Not one person.Not one experience.
If Oneness is our anthem, our
goal is congruency.
Can you even imagine a world at
peace?What would it take to get us
there?Does it come naturally to you to fold
your hands in prayer and ask for directions?Does it come naturally to you to ask for forgiveness for deliberately hurting
someone you love because you needed to feel something that day?Does it come naturally to you to bow your
head to a Creator that is far beyond your comprehension?Does it come naturally to you to know that
your mind is limited in its capacity to think and know?Or, does your ego laugh at those notions
convincing you that it has it all figured out?Does your ego tell you that it has everything it will ever need?Does your ego tell tales of past victories
won despite the carnage?How many of us
would need to open our hands extending our dirty little palms to the Divine for eternal cleanliness?How many of us would need to release our
tightened, bloodied fists, ask for forgiveness and let down our guard?How many of us would need to destroy our
weapons and artillery?How many would
still want to wear their armor and keep some guns just in case?That is third dimensional thinking, breathing and fearfully living, and it has run
its course.
Too many rivers run red with the
blood of the innocent, mine included.I’ve
shed enough tears to fill an ocean for the innocent, for myself, for all the
souls starving for true belonging.I have
never found this on this planet in human form, only in Spirit.Not yet anyway.
I have a few very powerful and
beautiful souls here, and we all have one thing in common, we love
unconditionally, like we’ve never been hurt, and we’ve all been hurt so very,
very deeply.
That’s fifth dimensional
thinking, breathing and fearless living, and it has only just begun.
When was the last time you
forgave someone without them having to ask for forgiveness by saying ‘I’m sorry’?When was the last time you gave someone your
last dollar knowing that you will always be provided for?When was the last time you gave someone
something that they desperately needed without judgement?When
was the last time you spoke to the pain in your body lovingly, asking it why it's there, and what you need to learn from it?When was the last time you looked in the
mirror and appreciated every line, wrinkle, freckle, blemish, or beauty mark?
Do you love yourself and others unconditionally?Or, do the conditions have to be just
right?3D says the conditions have to be
just right.5D says there are no
conditions.
3D says "Me first"!
5D says "You
first".
I have just typed over 2200 words
describing to you the most recent understanding of the state of MY being.I am choosing this higher, unconditional
loving vibration, no matter what.To
that end, I choose to be a very happy, loving, trusting, hopeful, dynamic, God
fearing child of the Most High God.I
choose to believe in light, unconditional love, magic, Spirit, Holy Alchemy and
a world that is mostly unseen.I choose
to believe in Divine Guidance, Divine Love, Divine Connection and Divine Communication. I choose to believe in kindness and gentleness. I choose to believe in a higher family
structure where no one is ever hurt, cast out, judged, criticized, mocked,
ridiculed, hushed, abandoned, or abused.I choose
to believe in a culture where gifts are shared, valued, encouraged and
cultured.I choose to believe there is
room enough and plenty enough for everyone.There is enough sunlight, moonlight and God light for all to shine, not
just a few.I choose to believe in
healing and spiritual health.I choose the
glow from within that even the sun envies.
I also choose to believe in the spiritual
heart of the human that is sometimes like a rain filled cloud, electrified in suffering.It pounds in defiance.It pounds in pain.It pounds itself apart in currents just to
feel the relief of expansion. I will always choose to heal and soothe that heart.
All of these elements work
together for the good.One is useless
without the other.We are useless
without one another.We could no sooner
learn the meaning of love without one another as we could walk without bones.Try it.Try loving without your heart.Try walking without your bones.Try having a meaningful life without all of the rest of us.Sure, you’ll have your preferences, but that’s
conditioned love and that’s like having no love at all.
Look around you.Is your life filled with love?When people talk about you, do they equate your
existence with immense love and compassion, understanding and generosity?If not, it’s not too late.You are an evolutionary being and even when
you’ve said ‘I’ve had enough’, you are graced with yet another day surely to expand
God’s glory and not your fear, but you choose.Every single second of every single day of your life you choose.Choose life.Choose love. And, then, give it all away.
When the human’s experience is
over, the Soul will surely testify.What power will your Soul have accumulated?What
will be in your Spiritual Escrow?
