I appreciate the fact that many years ago, it was not in my level of consciousness to really modify my behavior, unless it suited 'me'. Of course, once you embrace the divine and you allow Spirit to manifest in your life, that changes everything, and of course, this has been the course of my life.
Well, this much I've learned.
I pray to God Almighty, creator of Heaven and Earth, of all that is seen and unseen. God loves me with a jealous love. He abides in me.
I sit on the front end of a marriage that I would've died for, but couldn't save, as hard as I tried. A marriage I vowed to honor, in the sight of God and friends and witnesses. I asked God for this marriage, I prayed for it and it came, God gave our marriage to us. We were together for fifteen years, married ten. Would I consider it a failed marriage? Perhaps, perhaps not.
Failed marriage is a tough pill to swallow. It wasn't a complete failure. Nothing is. We are better people because of it. Maybe we'll even be better friends.
Jimmy and I will always be deeply connected. I love him and consider him to be part of my family in life. Forever, husband or no husband. It's all good. My God works all things . . .
By the way, just to honor the Most High God, here are a few basic “God terms” that are commonly used within Hinduism:
Om–God as Divine Sound
Bhagavan–God as Supreme Personality,
Isha–God as Supreme Lord
Purusha–God as Supreme Man
Brahman–God as impersonal force or energy
Mahesha–the Great Lord
Ahhhh there is power from On High people - can you hear me?
So, I pray for myself, as well as everyone else that unspeakable joy and love, peace, guidance and protection, good health, great relationships, abundance, friends and companions, family, freedom - all the things we basically have now, but even more, would be ours all the days of our lives.
and God, when, in your Grace you bestow upon us even more, help us to hold these gifts with tender care and help us to use them to return to you the great success that you have ordained.
I'm praying bigger this time.
I'd rather risk it all, then play it safe, especially if God is on my side.